Excruciating Agony: My Struggle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort around one eye that lasts for several hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.

Official guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Paula Harrington
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